recrucify replied to your post: I hate tumblr.
Anonymous asked: WOW @ tumblrdatinggame(.)com WTF is this.. my little brother's roommate is on this and I think I saw you too lol
Wow. I turn on anon and I get spam instead of hate mail? At least it’s something.
recrucify replied to your post: I hate tumblr.
shut the fuck up. you are way too hard on yourself and you know DAMN well women will be naked with you in your future it’s your fault if they don’t because you’re too much of a pussy and not hopeful enough.
I don’t know if this is motivational or insulting.
I probably am too hard on myself. But at the same time, I’m not doing any of the things I’m supposed to, so maybe I’m not being hard enough.
As for your next comment, I definitely don’t know that. I honestly don’t see it happening. I just.. don’t.
I don’t know what to say about your last comment. You’re probably right, but I don’t know what I could possibly do about it. From where I stand, there’s no hope in sight. And I don’t know how not to be a pussy.
I know it’s my fault for following a ton of porn blogs, but it’s just really bringing me down.
The incessant reminder that I’ll never fuck again. That no girl will ever again have the desire to be nude in my presence.
That no one will ever, or could ever, want me again.
I know it seems like I’m saying sex is everything, and it isn’t. It’s just the focus of this post because it was prompted by all the porn on my dash.
I can’t put into words the feeling I have when I think about all the sex taking place in the world right now between every imaginable type of person in every imaginable type of way. The pleasure, the companionship, the physical contact, the love, the lust. Everything.
And I sit here, day after day, year after year, alone and with nothing and no one. My life passes me by and while others get to enjoy themselves and each other, I’m consigned to solitude and misery for the remainder of my worthless years.
I wish there was someone I could matter to. Someone who cared when some minor trivial thing happened to me. Someone who would choose to be with me over any other possible thing they could do.
The road ahead of me is long. It’s dark. And it’s quiet. The only voices are the whispers of the wind through the leaf-less trees. The only beings who come to greet me on my path are the dancing shadows of the swaying branches that line the road. There’s nothing in front of me. There’s nothing behind me.
And yet I still don’t feel like eating.
I’m either dying or becoming immortal.
I hope I’m becoming immortal. Because that would be awesome.
True potential.
(Source: lilium)
“The one who Father loves is ME!”
(Source: lilium)
As I’m sure none of you noticed, I vanished off the face of the earth again for the last week or so. Clearly this is a common thing for me.
But this time it was legitimate.
With the exception of eating, sleeping, going to the bathroom and attending my sister’s college graduation party, I’ve spent the last 3 or 4 days working non-stop on a game for my final project in one of my classes I was in serious danger of failing.
I was supposed to have started months ago, but I ended up busy doing other things, one of them being Minecraft, of course.
Anyway, the game is basically done. There’s a strange bug I haven’t figured out yet, it doesn’t have music and I might add a high score chart, but other than that it’s basically done.
But don’t get excited. It’s just an asteroids clone.
If you’re interested, you’re welcome to check it out: http://freak-show.zxq.net/Exogorth.html.
One note, if you use the arrow keys, you won’t be able to rotate left while flying forward and shooting. This is not a coding error. Most keyboards are not designed to allow more than 3 or 4 simultaneous key presses. The way it works is that groups of keys all share a spot on the chip inside or something like that. So the keys that can be simultaneously pressed depend on how they’re split up.
If you use WAD to move, you can do all three together. However, you won’t be able to use WAD or pause the game while in full screen mode.
Again, this is not a coding error. Flash has a security thing that specifically does not allow use of the keyboard while in full screen mode. I have to specifically set it to allow keyboard interactivity while in full screen mode, but even then, full screen only works in the web browser and it only allows the keys Tab, Spacebar, Escape and the arrow keys to work.
Now that no one is still reading this I’ll just say… I don’t know. It’s a shitty game. But it’s the first complete game I’ve ever made and hopefully not the last. I hope people don’t hate it. And more importantly, I hope I pass my classes this quarter.
OH! I almost forgot. I named it Exogorth. I know you don’t know what that means. Remember that scene in the original Star Wars movies where the Millennium Falcon is escaping from the Empire so they fly into that asteroid field? Remember how they wind up inside that giant space slug? Well, that space slug is a species called an Exogorth.
So there you go.
(Source: swinglifeaw4y)
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“It’s not 150 percent pure metal for me my whole life, you know? I love rock and roll, I love the blues. A lot people that are in bands think you have to preach against every other kind of music in the world to be ‘hardcore,’ but that, to me, is just Hitler bullshit. Go ahead and keep you fucking ears closed, you closed-minded fucks, I’m gonna be jamming. There are so many different things that music can do to you besides beat you between the fucking eyes, you know? Of course, that’s the favorite feeling, and you’ve got to have your favorite thing, but give me a goddamn break! Have some variety in the fucking shit, you know?” — Dimebag Darrell (Last Interview, December 1, 2004)
(Source: chicken-of-bodom, via fuckmegentlywitha2x4)
Anonymous asked: WHERE ARE YOUR NUDES FOR GODS SAKE
I removed them a while back. I don’t think anyone was interested in them anyway. After all, you’re the first person to have noticed.
I hate the process of setting up a new computer. I was dreading this.
It takes so long to install all the necessary software and get everything all customized, get files copied over, etc…
Someone come install the rest of these programs for me. =(
I AM EXCITED
FINALLY I WON’T HAVE TO HAVE A GIANT FAN SITTING NEXT TO MY LAPTOP
AND I’LL BE ABLE TO PLAY MINECRAFT AND SWTOR AND DIABLO 3 WITHOUT LAGGING
AAAAAAAH! I AM HAAAPPYYYY
Sort of.
There’s also the stigma pertaining to the fact that my dad bought this for me. Something for which I’m always looked down upon… That everything is given to me, etc.
It sucks to not be able to enjoy things because of the negative feelings I know are in people’s heads about me as a result of this sort of thing.
But fuck it. Fuck them. My life only has to please me. It’s up to everyone else to find their happiness. It isn’t my job to please them.
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